ya know G-O-D?

God keeps taking care of me and its pretty weird.
not that this is anything new, but things have been pretty rough lately.

it's like he keeps telling me he isn't going anywhere.

bar etiquette, whether you like it or not

so just so you all know, in case you were wondering, which im sure you were:

1. when a bartender tells you she doesn't have any peanuts, continuously asking for them doesn't change the fact that she REALLY doesn't have any. do you think i'm hoarding them to be a bitch? seriously, you have to ask yourself, what is in it for me to not give them to you, huh? nothing. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. i have to hear you ask again and again for them and then whine about not having them. trust me, if i had them the first thing i would want to do is give them to you to shut you up.

2. if you are in that stage in a romantic relationship when you are oblivious to the world and obsessed with each other and cant take your hands off each other, don't sit at the bar. i'm not saying this because i'm bitter and jealous. i'm all for couples. i've had wonderful relationships and some of the best conversations with couples. all couples get a high five. woo hoo for couples. but seriously, it is really awkward when i am trapped behind the bar and you keep kissing and i am doing everything in my power to give you privacy, but you sat at my bar in front of me. so there is no where i can go. get a table, please, and save us all a lot of awkwardness and hatred.

3. FYI whiskey is both bourbon and scotch. so when i say, "would you like that with scotch" and you say, "no whiskey" we are going to go around and around forever. let's just say if you are going to be particular about a drink order you should at least know what it is you are drinking.

4. last but not least, do not hand me your credit card to start a tab with then say you dont want me to hold on to it. what would you like me to do with it? "ohh nice card. very pretty. just by looking at it i can tell you will not stiff me for the drinks you just ordered." what do you think starting a tab means? i understand that you don't want me to steal your credit card information, but i'm sorry to say, as soon as you make an actual purchase, i have access to it. it has nothing to do with me having it in my possession. if you really want to protect your identity, don't use a credit card.

i'm sick of drunk people. is it obvious?

my boy shaun

always good to see my boy toy in glossy print.

my parents & the almighty dollar

i have spent $370. 60 since the beginning of may on school supplies. this is not including my rent, or my food, or my utilities, i.e. this is not including the amount of money i have to spend to survive here. this is why, mom and dad, i have to work so much, since this seems to be so puzzling to you both. you want me to spend the money to come and see you, but you dont want me to work so much. quite the paradox.

i think you once told me that money doesnt grow on trees...

i feel like i'm going to vomit

i want a day off.
i want to go for a run.
i want to not go to school or to work.
i want one day when i dont feel like a disaster.

a guy at work asked if i had a boyfriend.
when i said "no"
he said "really? what's wrong with you? are you crazy or something?"

i'm beginning to think maybe i am.
it does run in the family.

what im trying really hard to read.

the fifteen pages i have read have been really good.




i wish i had a life.

workin' it

things i am tired of talking about with random old people:
where i am from,
what brought me
to savannah,
where i go to school,
what i am studying,
what my plans are after i graduate. and just so people know:
sleep. thats my plan. i plan on sleeping and sewing aprons.
all of my dreams now include pouring drinks and messing up people's tabs. i am at work even when i am asleep.
last night i spilled drinks on this group of teachers from high schools around the country checking out what SCAD has to offer. did i do this subconsciously?? that has yet to be determined.

ADDENDUM: people are annoying with their drink orders. case in point: do you make a good bloody mary? this isnt a question. this is a "if you dont make me agood drink i will not tip you" threat. and it makes me want to make it with my saliva, which i could never actually do but seriously... give me a break. of course my drinks are good. they contain your current drug of choice, alcohol.